May 5, 2005 – 4:34 pm

             Lord Jesus, I will not give up! I will never give up! I know that you will bless me. I will hold on to you until you bless me. Lord, I do not want to be part of this world. I do not want anything to do with evil. I only want to serve you. I want you to guide all of my ways. Please, Lord, have mercy upon me! Show me what you want me to do, and I will do it. Use me, Lord. Destroy my worldliness. Make me what you want me to be. Help me to only think about you. I cannot make it by myself. I know that you are with me. Lord, you have shown me that those who trust in you will never be put to shame. I will fight to the end, Lord. I will hold on to you and never let you go. Lord Jesus, I cry out to you! Have mercy upon me! Come to us, Lord, show us your ways. Direct our paths and fill us with your Holy Spirit. Lord, you have trained me to trust in you no matter what. It doesn't matter how bad things get or how bad things look. We walk by faith, not by sight. I will not trust in my own abilities or anything in this world. I will only trust in you, and I know that you will be with me in all things. I do not want to be lukewarm, Lord. Do not let me stray from your path. Fill me with your righteousness. Give me things to say to people that they will have nothing to say against. Teach me your truths, O Lord. Destroy my fear. Help me to never be ashamed of you. Lord, I praise you for what you have done. You have done great things! Lord, you have snatched me from the fire. You have rescued me from my iniquities. I was a filthy, vile person who did not know you, Lord. You have shown me how evil I was. I was consumed with every kind of wickedness. Lord, by your grace and mercy you have chosen me. I do not deserve to know you. I deserve the just penalty for my actions. Lord, there is nothing I can give you except my life. Take it and use it. This world is extremely confusing, Lord. I will never make it without you. You know the mind that you have given me, Lord. I get really confused. I don't know what is happening sometimes, Lord. I don't know who is talking to me. We are always torn between two things, Lord. You have shown us that we can trust in you, because we cannot know all things, Lord. We trust in you to tell us what we need to know. Lord, I know that you have plans for us. You will show us what to do. You will never abandon us, Lord, you test us and put us through trials for our own good and for your purpose. Lord, I praise your name! I praise you for who you are! Lord, help us to always draw near to you, so you will draw near to us. I never want to leave you, Lord, I want to know you and follow you with all my heart. I want to rescue my friends from the fire. Please, Lord, grant them repentance. Lead us to people who will accept the Truth. Whatever your will is, Lord, may it be done. Lord, I will not leave anymore. I will not accept mediocrity. I must push for perfection in all things. I cannot compare myself to anyone else and cannot live by the standards of this world. I want to be dead to the world, Lord. I want the world to be crucified to me. Destroy every wicked thought that comes into my head, Lord. Cleanse me of all iniquity. Help us to fearlessly preach the Truth in love to all people. Lord, I know that most will not follow you. May your will be done!

             Lord, you can do all things. The rules of this world mean nothing to you. You created everything. I will wait patiently for you, Lord. I know that you will answer our prayers. You have always been faithful to us, Lord. You come through every time! I love you, Lord. I want to spend time with you every day. I want you to draw near to me and teach me your ways. Lord, you know that all I want is to please you. Everything else is meaningless. Men think that I am crazy. They will never understand as long as they are blind. You have hidden the secrets of your kingdom from the wise and the learned and revealed them to little children. Blessed be your name. How can I do anything else besides serve you, Lord. You know that is my destiny. You created me for a purpose. This world is a lie. The wisdom of this world is foolishness to you, Lord. Men will never understand. You are in complete control, Father. No one can snatch us out of your hand. You watch over us and protect us. I am not good enough to do all that I have done. It is by your grace and mercy. Who am I? Why should I think anything of myself? I know the Truth! Dust is all that I am. Anyone who thinks that he is something when he is nothing is deceived. Lord, I long for the day when I will see you and be with you. I hate this world, Lord. I cannot bear to see sin. You have opened my eyes to the Truth, Father. I am not better than anyone else. My pride has been destroyed. Anyone with pride is deceived. Lord, your ways are opposite of the ways of this world. This world is foolishness. Let us be free from this world, Lord.

             Thank you for letting me talk to you, Lord. Thank you for coming to rescue me. I need you, Lord. This world wants to destroy me! Do not let it devour me, Lord, please protect me. Do not let me give up. Keep us strong until the day of redemption. Help us to cling to you, Lord, and never let go! You are all we have, Lord! We have nothing to trust in but you. Father, direct our paths and use us for your purposes. Whatever you desire, Father, do with us.

             Lord, you have convicted me of sins and given me new insights. Please teach us how to serve you to the fullest, Lord. Help us to clearly see what is right and what is not. Answer our prayers, Lord, please show us what you want us to do. We are confused about several different issues, Lord. Show us what we should do. We don't want to sin against you, Lord, we want to serve you to the fullest. Do not let us ignorantly sin, Lord, rebuke us if we ever disobey you. Put our sins in front of us, Lord, so we can turn from them and walk in all of your ways. We are ready to do your will, Father. Ask and we will do it. I pray in the name of Christ Jesus, amen.