November 11, 2004 – 11:03 am

             Father, I cannot express my thanks for you giving me that sermon. There is so much deception in this world, Father, it's crazy! Satan's armies are everywhere, and they're trying to deceive everyone and destroy every bit of truth still left in the world. Father, I feel just like King David felt, I hate the falsehood that is consuming this world. Father, the church today is a lie! Everyone makes light of sin. They don't know what it means to suffer for you, Father, and to be in anguish over the condition of the world. They are blind, Father! They cannot see the truth! Father, I feel horrible for ever doubting what you have clearly shown me. I feel just like the Israelites when they forgot about the amazing miracles that you did for them, Father. I have to hold on to the truth! I cannot let it slip away. Father, thank you so much for rescuing us from Satan's grasp. Thank you so much for not letting us be deceived. Father, please lead us to a church that preaches the truth. Destroy any worldliness that I have, Father, I want to seek the truth with all my heart. I don't want to be deceived, Father, I want your true Word. I want to be consumed with the truth, Father, I love your truth. It brings me extreme joy! Thank you so much for using David Neace to send us that sermon, Father. Please guide us in everything, Lord. Guide us to do your will and to find people that we can bring to you. Lord, you are all I care about and desire. I desire to serve you with all my heart, Lord. Thank you so much for choosing me, Father! That is what your mercy and grace is! It is being patient with me my whole life and never giving up on me. You had to see me do horribly wicked things, Father, and think horribly wicked thoughts. You've never abandoned me, Lord, you just put me through tests and trials which are good for me. I've spent a lot of time in the wilderness, but it helps me truly appreciate when you make your power known to me, Father. I long for your comfort, love, and truth, Father. There is nothing like it! Never let my heart be hardened, Father. I can't make it without you! I need you, Father, the world wants to destroy me! I must put my full faith and trust in you and not my own abilities. That is what you have taught me, Father. That is why I go through extreme torment with the thorn in my flesh. I praise you for giving it to me, Father, it is for my own good. It is just like Paul said, Father. Men want me to doubt you, Lord. They don't believe me. They want me to doubt the things you have clearly shown me, by your grace and mercy. I don't ever deserve to speak to you again, Father, but by your grace and mercy and love you allow me to. Today's church cannot truly appreciate the grace and mercy because they do not see sin like you see it, Father. When the truth about sin is revealed to you, it makes you want to fall on your face in shame and anguish. It also allows you to truly appreciate and be filled with joy by your love, mercy, and grace, Father. Lord, I try not to make any unrighteous judgments. I try to give everyone a fair chance. Lord, I can only feel joy when the truth is preached. When I hear lukewarm or false preaching it doesn't give me joy. Lord, there is foolishness going on in our churches, and people are totally under a spell of deceit. They go to church to be entertained or made to feel good, even though they have been sinning. They don't know you, Lord, just like I didn't know you even though I was absolutely convinced that I did. They don't want to know the truth, Lord, they want to determine what the truth is. They do not approach you and your Word with broken, humble hearts. Father, I can only trust you, not men. You are my rock, Father. You provide everything I need. Lord, please help me to trust you no matter what happens, even if the whole world turns on me, and I become the scum of the earth. Lord, I joyously await the good things that you have planned for me. They think we have no joy, Father, but they have no clue! We take joy in the Truth, not in falsehood. Please, Father, I have lost the fight that I once had. Restore me, o Lord, help me do the first works. Never let my fire go out, Father. Everywhere we go, people try to throw water on us, Father. They despise the true Gospel message. Lord, I am ready to suffer for your name, no matter what I have to go through. Restore the confidence and faith I once had, Father, don't let them take it from me. Keep me humble in all things and help me shine your light. Help them see Christ in me. Men hated you, Lord, and they will hate me if I am walking in all of your ways. But the ones who know the truth will love me, Father. Keep guiding us and molding us, Lord, help us to fulfill your plan for our lives. Please keep us motivated and encouraged, Father. I love you so much! They think that we're Pharisees, Father, just because we take sin seriously. We love you and don't want to sin against you, Lord, and we know that you hate sin. The Pharisees were hypocrites, Father, and you know that we are not. Please help us to hate sin just like I did at the beginning. Don't let us compromise anything, Father. Help us to have the same mind that was in Christ Jesus. Help us to take captive every thought and make it obedient to you, Lord God. Rule our lives and fill us with your Holy Spirit. Guide our every step, Father, and use us for your glory. One day we will be with you in the New Jerusalem, Father, if we hold on to the Truth. How I long for that day! I cannot wait to live in a world of righteousness where there is no darkness! I cannot wait to finally meet you face to face! Lord, I long to be with you, but I know my job here is not finished. It would be terribly selfish of me to want the world to end now when so many would perish in eternal flames. Lord, please use us to bring as many to you as you desire. Make Heaven and Hell seem real to us. I praise you for all of the dreams and visions you have given me. Help me to hold on to those and never forget them. Keep our thoughts focused on things above and not on the things of this world. I will follow you anywhere, Lord. Just tell me what to do, and I will do it. All I ask is that you make everything clear to me and help me to trust you. Destroy everything about me that hinders me from following your will for my life and serving you to the fullest. Thank you, Father, for everything. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for going through suffering that is beyond our comprehension. And thank you, Holy Spirit, for guiding me in everything I do. All of these things I humbly pray, in the name of Christ Jesus our Lord, amen.